i cant stop thinking about joonmyeon who probably feels like a horrid leader and maybe he feels like a liar because he promised tao would come back, im thinking about yixing and the hate he will get when it will be just him while 3 chinese memebrs left, i think about sehun who lost luhan and will now lose his other best friend and i wonder how he will go on, i think about baekhyun whos smiles are getting more and more scarce these days, i think about chanyeol whos grown a little bitter recently, about xiumin the oldest who probably feels so lost and unsure about how to take care of 9 younger boys, i think about kai and his years of hard work to a group falling apart, about chen and his talent that is wasting away in the face of scandal after scandal, and about kyungsoo who was finally making something for himself. im thinking about these boys and my heart just wont stop aching.
And I don't live in China but somehow my country is full of Chinese nationals. Like permanent residents and yes I being totally unreasonable and unfair and rude to judge but majority have terrible personalities. Not all but majority. I am Chinese too not from China but somewhere else in asia and I am getting a very bad impression from Tao's dad. Yes every parent loves their child to death literally but his health wasn't all he cared about....
Yes, I was always angry at the Korean netizens because they were always being so racist. They were always leaving comments like; ‘’All the chinese members will leave. You will see it soon…’’ when Kris left… And then Luhan left but I insisted on not to releate this with their being Chinese. But then now Is Tao going to leave too now? I even don’t know how should I feel about this now..
I’m gradually starting to lose my hope..
I just became a exo L like in December so I wasn't involved in Kris and Luhan's departure so it didn't hurt at all. But now... it sucks I finally get it. He isn't even my bias but HE IS TAO, and I love him too. And no, I don't want him to leave exo, a lot might say i am selfish and totally I am in life pretty much but there is another way, he doesn't have to leave to be healthy again you get what i mean??
Can I just hug you? You literally explained my feelings
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I'm sure that Tao doesn't want to leave Exo either, but honestly, his health is important, too. The fact that he's held on for so long is heart-breaking, and there's a chance that he could injure himself beyond repair if he continues like this. He loves EXO and EXO-L, but if the best thing is for him to leave, we shouldn't be mad at him. It will only hurt him more.
Though It hurts to agree. Yes, You are right… But, I just can’t think logically now, On the one hand the best thing for him is to leave, I know….If he is going to be healtier and happier there, We should just be happy too for him. But on the other hand It really hurts when I think of him, when I think of the times on the stage while he hugs members and cries…. and the time when Suho went to the stage to get the award alone while the other members were crying at behind the stage on the day of Kris’s departure… when these come to my mind, I just really want him to stay with us… I’m so sorry about being that much selfish, I’m sorry about being that much emotional and not being logical… I hope all the members are going to be happy with their decisions, I will support all of them whatever happens..EXO & EXO-L Saranghaja!
[haha I’m sorry when I started writing I couldn’t stop myself]
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Still waiting on Suho to buy SM and stop this shit
SuMoney entertainment. Now.